… all of my life
ago
unforgettable
forty-one years
to be exact
I walked into the garage
at my new friend K-cat’s house
when we were sweet 16 -
Suzy-Q
K-Kat and me -
and there hunkered down next to a Sporty
Harley-Davidson
was the most beautiful back
I had ever seen
dark wavy hair
had me intrigued
then he stood up turned around
wrench in hand
stopped dead in his tracks
staring at me with the most gorgeous Paul Newman eyes
most handsome face
I have ever seen
then or since -
K’s older brother -
his friend called Stud with his Harley too
and I sucked my breath
as his Mother and K-Kat, Suzy-Q and Studley-doo
all standing around
went silent
when the chemistry
ELECTRICITY
palpable
powerful
unbelievable energy
the stuff “Love at First Sight” is made of
filled up the room
and they all felt it
too
as it locked us
and bound us
irrefutably
for all my life
so that even when I faded from him
later after
nights in the blankets in his basement room
his T.V. louder than our passion
we hoped
later when he drove down my street once
finally
well after
he appeared out of nowhere at the
small town country dances Suzy-Q and K-Kat and I
frequented on occasion
often enough to give me hope
only to dash it by never calling my phone
but why would he when I was never at home
showing up constantly to
“stay the night” with K-Kat
which really meant another rendevouz with him
in the basement
where our mostly silent somewhat secret
lusty love affair flaired
and his parents must have known
but they seemed to have adopted me
and even after
nights in motel rooms
when the bars closed down
I must say not a day has passed that I have not thought of him
longing
pining
hopelessly dejected
after
I gave up and married another when I was 18
which did not last
not when I was still in love with
him
and then I eventually married again
after
moving three states away
which did not last long
again
and then again and again nothing has worked out
with any man
right up to now
so just a few days ago I found out
his wife of 35 years has passed away
and I don’t know why I know but
technology makes it so -
don’t know what to do
or say
after
all is said and done
something happened that day
forever ago when I was
young
that has never been
undone
and has never
to this day
gone away …….
Domestic Violet
Semper Vi ~
Survivor . . . from the VORTEX
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