the other day -
didn't know what to say
it was so
surreal
when I heard news of the death of
Michael Jackson -
but I finally cried when I heard Farrah Fawcett
died too
and I watched The BURNING BED
again
and when it was over
I danced to THRILLER
BILLIE JEAN and
ROCK WITH YOU -
twirled my baton
and marveled at seeing Farrah's Story
recently and how quickly she is
gone ( chemo-therapy KILLS once again ! )
and then I thought about the extraordinary
talent
exhibited in Michael Jackson's lifetime
and Farrah will never know
how many wanted
Farrah's hair
when I was 22 and busy
in Beauty School
and how many longed to be able to wear
that red swimsuit -
a brave soul in life and on screen
when she played a bad-ass with a great ass
Charlie's Angel
and then conversely she became
taken more seriously as
Francine Hughes
battered and bruised
when she lit the bed on
fire -
and I UNDERSTOOD
as only a battered woman could
how
the character she portrayed so well
poured gasoline from a can and
lit the match in a desperate
and
" DONE "
violent act that took the life of
the man she LOVED -
her husband Mickey/abuser/attempted murderer -
and she made the VIOLENCE
END
once and for all
but
I was GONE in real time
finally and
again and again -
before it went THERE in my life
but not before wearing
shades of
blue
black
and bloody red
eyes
nose
shoulders and
legs
ribs
toes well stepped on
and broken stuff in my
neck and back -
I remember living clearly in HELL
as I recall seeing her get beat-up
the first time on T.V.
in '84
while at the very same time I was
living in the war zone -
suggesting one night
that the man who made me
bleed again
should perhaps SLEEP LIGHTLY MICKEY !!!!!!!!!!!! -
but that's as far as I could go
and I knew I had to leave
or one day have no choice and
someone could have died and it might not have been
me -
but many years passed before I was
Battery Free -
unfortunately today
there is only incrementally
incidentally
more HELP for
women like me and Francine !
The Burning Bed
illustrates well
how little support
we really have had and how often
the families of origin
enable this TRAGEDY -
turning a blind eye -
blaming the VICTIM with misplacement of
culpability -
even worse when this comes from
OTHER WOMEN -
some who have never been
struck -
and some who are
stuck
in denial
of their own
misery -
buying the lie -
hiding their own bruised
eye -
figuratively
literally
pitifully
believing they are responsible
for the actions of another
because societal mores and the perpetrators
and possibly their battered mothers
convinced them it was true -
therefore other Battered Women must be guilty too ?
Hello is that YOU ???
If so please know
I pray
for
your
release
from the burden of
erroneous delusional thinking
and today I pray for
Farrah and Michael too -
that their return
HOME
is GRANDER than and
GREATER than
their Earthly pursuits
and that
blissful communion with authentic Universal Power
be theirs
as they step out of their
" suits "
going HOME for repairs
AND possibly WILL be SENT ONCE AGAIN
BACK here TO ANOTHER LIFE !
I KNOW I've been here
before !!!
They were HOT and Rockin'
while they were with us
in this plane of
existence
and right now they know
no pain
and they know
no
fear . . .
Domestic Violet
Semper Vi ~
Survivor . . . from the VORTEX
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